By Your Side

This is the longest I've gone without posting since I went on vacation last. I've written about 6 different drafts throughout the week, but just couldn't get myself to publish them. I've been sad and a little depressed lately and decided they were just too much of a downer so I deleted them. I'm sad often, partly because of a unique, complicated situation in my life, but also some of it is probably hormonal, or lack thereof. Most of the time I try not to show it since that can get old real fast.

Sometimes I wish I had an anonymous blog so I could really pour my heart out and write just exactly what was on my mind. You know... vent and blow off steam, whine, cry and get angry about my heartbreak, unfairness, and pain. Lol! Gee, I'll bet you're so happy you stopped by today.

It's interesting how I can have so many things in my life to be thankful for, and I know that I'm incredibly blessed, but the things that cause pain become so intensified that they overshadow everything else. In my current Bible lesson it talks about thanking God for even the unpleasant situations in our lives. I don't remember ever doing that, probably because it's just not normal. But this morning I decided to give it a try. He knows the things that are causing my heart to break, and I believe He will answer my prayers eventually. The word I'm disliking the most right now is "longsuffering".

This song brings me comfort today...